I just dont fucking understand people ,its like no matter what you do you cant please them ….I try my hardest to be nice to people , and it like it doesnt matter …im not saying im perfect by no means i know ive screwed up but i dont ever intentionally mean to hurt someone in the lst yr ive learned alot about myself and have learned to deal with life which is very hard for me to learn because i take everything to heart and its not good that i do that becuz it tears me up inside ….sometime im so fucking depressed and i dont know why and its hard for me to go to people becuz everyone has there own crap to worry about ….. in trying so hard to learn to be happy with myself and not put myself down and think im not good enough ….becuz it puts me in a really bad place and its so hard to explain that to people when they ask whats wrong ……i just dont want to be sad anymore or doubt myself becuz i doubt myself in everything i do …….i hope one day that i can not doubt myself in everything …..people dont realize how hard it is for me to keep a front up when im so sad and dont know why im sad , im not asking for pity or for anyone to feel bad im just really trying to understand myself and get thur this
now im in a wonderful relationship -marriage my husband is awesome ,he been helping me get thur this ,so to anyone whom been in abusive relationship and you dont deal with it, it will come up sometime in your life trust me , becuz im dealing now with pts and it hard to deal with ….I will get thur this ….With the help of my family and husband ,if you dont have the support there are people out who will help you ….so the morel of what im saying is deal with it right away so you can enjoy the sunshine instead of suffering otherwise ur abuser wll continue to control you
sometimes im so sad that it hurts, and it turns into panic that I will always be that way,or that im crazy …..guess not dealing with my past has now come to haunt me now ……how to stay positve is the question ?everyone tells me that it takes time but I just want to foreget about the past and not deal,my x didnt know how to keep his hands to himself and it lead to violence and abuse….yet it took me two yrs to walk away., even when i caught him in bed with another woman (in our bed)I still stayed
A true friend is there till the end. A true friend tells you when you’re right but also when you’re wrong. A true friend forgives, a true friend looks out for you. A true friend does not envy your success and does not boast in your failures. A true friend never gives up on you even when you don’t want to talk. A true friend listens, a true friend understands. A true friend understands your gestures and can read what you’re thinking just through eye contact. A true friend does not talk about you behind your back, a true friend supports you as much as they can. A true friend loves, a true friend doesn’t have to always be together 24/7 but carry each other at heart. A true friend understands “I’m okay” means everything is going all wrong. A true friend knows when “leave me alone” means give a hug and when it means I need space but call me later. A true friend knows you’re their true friend even if you don’t say it everyday. A true friend cares and blessed are those who have at least one true friend. (Me, Myself & I) Reblog this if you have that one true friend you LOVE!
almost 2 weeks ago I married my bestfriend lover soulmate ,it was th best DAYof mY life …it was everything ive ever wanted, I LOVE BEING MARRRIED ITS A FEELINING LIKE NONE OTHER XOXOX I WILL GROW OLD WITH MY HUSBAND „WE WILLWALK THUR THIS WORLD TOGETHER
my sister came forthe summer and it was awesome to have her at my home here, i had missed her so much , we have such a bond ,shes truly is my bestfriend, I feel I can tell her anything and she never judges me ,loves me unconditionly ..I love her so much and would do anything for her ,shes an amazing woman her strength ,beauty, passion for life , her smartness shes just awesome, she took care of my stepdaughters this summer and was amzing with them, im so lucky to have her in my life , if you have someone in your life like that then your very lucky …i know i am … i love you my sister my bestfriend…thankyou for always being there ,I hope you have an awesome time at collage love you xoxox <3
